My thought this morning, after providing breakfast, OT
treatments, cleaning up rooms, doing PRT with my son, and cleaning up the
kitchen all before brushing my teeth is that…..
Mothering is a smelly job.
No, change that.
Mothering is a smelly lifestyle. I’ve
been struggling a lot lately with my “job” of being a mom. I know it is super selfish and ungrateful and
that I’m a horrible person, so you don’t need to tell me how lucky I am to have
the opportunity to complain about being a mom since so many don’t get a chance
to be in this position in the first place.
But it hit me this morning. I’m
looking at being a mom as a job, when really it is a lifestyle choice. Just
as being married is not a job, it is a choice you make (typically in a large
white dress surrounded by friends and family) that changes your life trajectory. I am hopeful this shift could help me relieve
some of the stress that I’ve been under lately.
And keep things in perspective.
For example; if being a mom is my “job”, then I feel I’m failing at it miserably. I haven’t been able to cure my child of his
autism. His tantrums and struggles break
my heart and I cry a lot throughout the day out of frustration and anger. Also,
while I think I am doing a pretty good “job” at raising my 4 year old, she does
not have perfect manners, is not fed strictly organic food and thinks her mom
is crazy (in a fun and loving way, but definitely crazy). If being a mom is my “lifestyle”, maybe I
can have a bit more leeway…… Maybe I can work at all of the things I am trying
to achieve for my children, implementing better diet choices, researching new
therapies and discipline strategies, but if they don’t instantly “work” then I
can just keep trying them, keep plugging away at what I’m trying to create in
our family (peace, love, harmony, good will towards men) and not measure myself
against metrics that I can never quite hit…...?
Just a thought about a new way to attack the modern mommy problems. You know, the ones we created for ourselves
because we want the absolute BEST for
our children and want them to become the most well-adjusted, healthy people
they can be and we need to make it look effortless and like we have no
struggles at all because everyone else seems to make it look that way.
Alright, I’m off to brush my teeth.
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