I know that we are in the throes of the "Hap-happiest season of all" the MOST wonderful time of the year, but I have to confess, I've been feeling the holiday blues a bit this week.
I do beleive we can learn from our past, and that perspective on things helps us to better view our present day. So I've been reflecting. And remembering. And recounting. And looking backwards. I've been pretty over-indulgent in the reflecting department! I know that for me, the holidays can be filled with the merriest of memories while also bringing out some pretty sad stuff too. My head has been filled with the following manic merry-go-round of thoughts about....
My Family, family members that are no longer with us, and new members of our family.
Friends, old friends, new friends, new-old friends, and people I used to know.
The traditions of my family, of my husband's family, of my sisters new family, of our family when we were little, of our family after my parents got divorced. The Christmases in the early adult stage of life, and what Christmas will be like when my family grows older.
The end of a year approaching, how I was feeling last year at this time, how much has changed in our lives from last year, from the year before that....
Spiritual revelation, the reason for Christmas, the miracle of the holiday, trying to explain that all to two toddlers and also explain how Santa fits in...
Holiday parties with friends, at school, gifts for teachers, assistants, therapists, family holiday parties, what I'll wear for New Years Eve (sad, but yes, this has been popping up over and over again).
Holiday cards, giving them receiving them, and trying to figure out how to do it without all the brain damage.
It has been great, it has been sad, and it has been just a little bit stressful. I've laughed, I have cried, and I have cut people off in the parking lot. I feel like I've totally embodied the holidays. Since I know this time of year can be hard for a lot of people, I just thought I'd share a bit of what I've been feeling. Hopefully it makes you feel uplifted to know that there is someone out there who is crazier than you :) In the end, we're all in this together, so if you are feeling blue this year, know that there are people out there who love you and just want to celebrate the brighter points of the season with you.
